After all this time - 1,176 days to be exact, I had a very vivid smoke mare last night. It seemed so very real. In my dream, I had totally relapsed and all that I could think of was how am I going to tell my EX friends. I felt ashamed and embarrassed. I was so relieved to wake up and realize that it was only a dream. So big thanks to all of you - it really helps having someone (actually many someones) that I have to be accountable to. New quitters - Stay close to this site and the people here. This can be one of your most important quit aids!