Hi everyone!
Here I am again . It's been almost 3 years free of smoking. My quit date was 08/25/14.
Being totally confident that I was never going to pick up that cigarette again. I was doing so well.
I started slowly.. having 1 cigarette maybe once a week socially, then 2 or 3 . After a month or so it steadily progressed to the same amount I was smoking before I quit, 10-15 cigs a day.. It's been almost 3 months now that I am back to the habit I don't like. Mad at myself.. I can't believe it I am doing it to myself again. At least now I know where to go and what to do.
Hoping that I can do it again and be smarter next time.. I have hope, but I know it's not going to be easy.
Grateful for this place with so much support and information, going to dig all info that helped me last time. Picking up the date again.. July 1st really spoke to me, Don't want to prolong this agony ..
Any advice and support would be greatly appreciated!
Thank you.
No need to be mad at yourself - you've learned a valuable lesson that many of us learned the hard way. I blew a 2 year quit thinking I could smoke "socially" and blew so many more trying to bargain with the addiction. Just one occasionally, perhaps if I smoked cigars instead occasionally, even tried e-cigs thinking maybe that would satisfy. None of it worked - I'd eventually end up where I'd been if not smoking more.
I'd suggest educating yourself again about the addiction - a great resource is Allen Carr's book -http://media.wix.com/ugd/74fa87_2010cc5496521431188f905b7234a829.pdfhttp://media.wix.com/ugd/74fa87_2010cc5496521431188f905b7234a829.pdf
It really gave me a different frame of mind going into this quit. There are plenty of other resources here on this site and elsewhere on the web. Glad you decided to come back - this time will be the last!