I had broke my self and smoked, but on June 7th, 2018 I quit again. So now I am on the 3rd day. It's easier this time than last. I rarely get cravings now. I don't know what happened other than possibly a miracle.
In search of a way to stay quit, I birthed a thought in my mind; that I need to learn temperance.
I bought some books on Buddhism, the Four Noble Truths, and many other books. I am also reading the book The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. Reading keeps me from thinking about smoking, though my mind seems to be racing a bit now. But it's not so bad that I can't focus to read.
Thank you all so much for being hard on me when I first got here. I seriously wouldn't have gotten this far if you hadn't. Sincerely, I am very thankful. I haven't got to talk to my brother yet, to tell him I've quit. But I know he will be glad to hear. He was hard on me too. But I'm glad. Now, I cannot understand how I could even smoke one cigarette, let alone a whole pack a day.
Why is this time so much easier? I'm happy that it is, I'm not questioning in frustration - I question in curiosity. I honestly feel there was a miracle happen.
Also, I can smell much better, I can taste much better... and I'm exercising, and I've changed my diet! I've lost 10 pounds already.