xjamarkx

Tired but Wired

Blog Post created by xjamarkx on Aug 26, 2017

I need to stop writing things when I'm so tired I'm about to konk out. I had a bit of sleep since a post earlier, but I came here to check messages and found I had written this post that made absolutely no sense whatsoever. I have got to quit doing that. I get so excited to talk to everyone when I get on, but I need to consider resting before getting online, especially if I'm dosing off when I'm typing.
I hope no one seen that. How stupid of me.
Anyway, I came on just a few minutes ago because I'm tired, but I cannot get the rest of my sleep out. My body feels wired up.
Right now I've got that depression feeling, as well, that says "what's there to be happy about?" I cannot stand it. I've told it to shut up. I've told it I refuse to listen to it anymore. But it's a *feeling*. Then the first thing that comes to mind is "what's there to be happy about?".
Gosh I hope I didn't leave any stupid messages on anyone's blogs or PM's. If I did, forgive it, please. I was very tired, yet wired. Seems impossible to be both, but I am.
I keep telling myself, "There's nothing to push yourself for; don't worry and just rest". I tell me that, but I don't believe it. I think I've got to worry about everything and push myself to keep too busy.

I am really looking forward to the holidays that are coming up soon. I love the Fall and Winter holidays. Thanksgiving is my favorite. It just popped in my mind.

Okay, that's all again.

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