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Goodbye Letter

xjamarkx
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I may want to add things to this later, so there may be updates on it every now and then...


Dear Nicotine (Smoking and Cigarettes),

After I took a puff of you 12 years ago, just one puff, and you talked me into allowing you to stay. You are manipulative and conceited. I’m sick and tired of you running my life! My “life”, if you want to call it that, has been put on hold too many times, because YOU said to me, “let’s have a smoke”.

Are you aware that you’ve ruined my health? Well, you did. Sure, talk me into letting you stay with me, and that’s how you repay me? What about dad… didn’t you kill him as well?

You are a murderer, and have been since you were invented. You are a liar, and the Father of it too. You know what? I bet you’ve destroyed my mind more than I think you have. You are a sly little demon. I loathe you: everything you’ve done to me, mom, dad and anyone else who has had the misfortune of meeting you. I don’t want to hear from you ever again. You come knocking on my inner door, and you are had! I will not take this abuse from you any more. And yeah, I do have friends and others who were abused by you as well. That, Nicotine, does not go over well with me. Remember the first lie ever told? The first temptation? (According to the Holy Bible, at least). Eve spoke back to the serpent. IMO, she should have never spoke back to it. And that’s how I feel about you, Nicotine! When you say “let’s go smoke”, I will ignore you. I will not give you the pleasure and power over me, ever again. You may think you have me bound forever in your chains, but you are terribly mistaken. The first temptation: (which has been repeated innumerable times)

“Now the serpent was more subtil than any beast of the field which the Lord God had made. And he said unto the woman, Yea, hath God said, Ye shall not eat of every tree of the garden?

And the woman said unto the serpent, We may eat of the fruit of the trees of the garden:

But of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God hath said, Ye shall not eat of it, neither shall ye touch it, lest ye die.

And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die:

For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil.

And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat.

And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons”

Eve must have heard it from Adam, but Eve added something to it that Adam wasn’t told. “Neither shall ye touch it”. That wasn’t what Adam heard! So when she not only engages in conversation with the evil, then adds something to it. She was setting herself up for not being able to resist temptation.

the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise,…”

That right there is the whole problem. To sum up evil in a few words, “Lust of the flesh (tree good for food), lust of the eyes (it was pleasant to the eyes), and the pride of life (a tree to be desired to make one wise” . I didn’t mean to write a Bible study here, but mistakes that are not learned the first time are doomed to happen again. Ecc. 3:15 says That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past. History is ALWAYS repeating itself.

And if I do not learn the truth about you and how you operate, then I am still in bondage to you. But once I am free, I will have broken the ties, and possibly history won’t repeat itself. I’ve been in time loops before; that’s also how you work. You work with Time itself. I won’t be your slave any longer. I will set myself free. And when I do, the moment I do, I may want to banish you to eternal time loops, with no way out. You can feed off yourself, and see how you like it. Depart from me, Nicotine. I never knew you.

Alex

P.S. Nicotine, you remind me of this:

The Snake" by Al Wilson (1968):

On her way to work one morning Down the path along side the lake A tender hearted woman saw a poor half frozen snake His pretty colored skin had been all frosted with the dew "Poor thing," she cried, "I'll take you in and I'll take care of you" "Take me in tender woman Take me in, for heaven's sake Take me in, tender woman," sighed the snake

She wrapped him all cozy in a comforter of silk And laid him by her fireside with some honey and some milk She hurried home from work that night and soon as she arrived She found that pretty snake she'd taken to had bee revived "Take me in, tender woman Take me in, for heaven's sake Take me in, tender woman," sighed the snake

She clutched him to her bosom, "You're so beautiful," she cried "But if I hadn't brought you in by now you might have died" She stroked his pretty skin again and kissed and held him tight Instead of saying thanks, the snake gave her a vicious bite "Take me in, tender woman Take me in, for heaven's sake Take me in, tender woman," sighed the snake "I saved you," cried the woman "And you've bitten me, but why? You know your bite is poisonous and now I'm going to die" "Oh shut up, silly woman," said the reptile with a grin "You knew damn well I was a snake before you took me in "Take me in, tender woman Take me in, for heaven's sake Take me in, tender woman," sighed the snake

 

 

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I'm 35/m/KY, USA. I used to smoke a pack a day. I write poetry. I'm focusing on the spiritual awakenings I've had and allowing them to guide me on the right path for my life.