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TRIGGERED AT 7 MONTHS

virgomama
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Triggered at 7 Months

My biggest smoking trigger has always been social smoking.  I used it to connect with my sisters as we solve world/personal problems.  Talking around the table drinking coffee and smoking.  At least 3 of my quits were lost due to my thinking I could have just one cigarette with my best friend and I'd get back to quitting.  One cigarette before I confront someone I wasn't comfortable with.  That great smoke after lovemaking.  Oh yes.... my nicotine programmed brain is full of "pleasant" memories...

It has been 7 months and I'm chugging right along on this latest (and last) quit.  I'm having a nice visit with a friend I haven't seen in months.  We are chatting away on her patio and she lights up.  

BAM!  There it is.  That sneaky voice in my head wanting to have just one smoke with my dear friend.  I had to get up and walk around it was so strong.  Luckily we were close to the end of our conversation so I didn't have to excuse myself early. 

I was quite surprised at the strength of my urge to smoke.  Really thought I was past this.  Oh contraire. 

Once again, the voices of the elders rings out to me.  BEWARE!!! The nicotine demon that first year.  It is sneaky and loves to catch you when you least expect it.  In that split second moment of choices your future is decided.  I chose my quit, but I'm a little taken aback by how close I came to losing it.  

Protect your quit.  Be ready to chose it whenever it gets challenged, because it will.  Are you willing?  

Cindy

228 DOF and still counting.  YES!

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I'm a former Special Ed teacher, crisis counselor, business owner, child care facilitator. I'm currently a receptionist/bookkeeper waiting for my next career which is retirement. I'm 62 years young.