Yesterday was my first day of the final quit.
It went like this!
Got up this morning feeling really good about this quit.
Figured out how to put on the Patch. Drank a cup of coffee.
I'm sitting in my living room watching CNN when it dawns on me.
I HAVEN'T HAD A SMOKE!!!! I started to wait for those
cravings to begin. It's 11:30 am I'm still waiting.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. It's just that normally
I'm is a state by now. I've done the Patch before and it didn't
feel like this. Maybe all that pre quit stuff wasn't just busy work
3:30 pm/ I'm starting to feel that "Gee, a smoke and coffee
would be good right now!".
4:30pm/ O.K. so I can't find the phone!
5:00pm/ Hey found the phone! Wish I could remember how to work it.
I'm feeling a little confused.
6:00pm/ Ate dinner, really had some bad cravings!
Rember: Smoking is not an option!
Called cousin Lynne, " Sorry honey, you can't go to the beach with me tomorrow.
Why? Truth is that right now if you even smelled of cigarette smoke I'd have to dig a hole, put you in, cover you up and wait for the tide to come . Besides you're my lawyer and who would defend me on the murder charge!Knew you'd understand. Love you, bye"
7:00pm/Dull nagging ache like gripping need desireâ€¦.STOP! So your in withdrawl, get over it. You knew it wasn't going to be easy. Breath girl, breath. Positive thought. Your not losing anything! Your gaining EVERYTHING! Look what this crap has done to you. Kick it to the curb! You can do this. You can do this. YES, I CAN DO THIS!!!!
9:00 pm/Oohh brownies!.Hell, I better just go to bed early!.
And I did not smoke at all.