100 Days

[tlajbenn]

What a long strange trip it's been!

Hell week was hell! The first month was a crazy roller coaster ride of ups and downs. The ride is leveling out with only a few bumps and dips along the way. Now I get to enjoy the scenery instead of clinging on for dear life. And the scenery is so much better when it is not smother is a cloud of smoke.

Here are some things I have gained so far: 

• Understanding addiction has helped me to quit and remain quit. 
• I can breath easier. I don't get winded as easily or as often
• My dog and I look forward to walking around the neighborhood each afternoon.
• Yoga is good for the body and mind. 
• I don't smell. My clothes don't smell. My car doesn't smell. 
• It is okay to ask for help. Asking for help is not a sign of weakness. 
• I don't need to try to be perfect. Perfection is unattainable.
• Sometimes I have a short temper, but I am working on that. 
• I get to sleep 20 minutes longer in the morning just because I I quit smoking. 
• I don't have to avoid certain social situations or plan activities around finding time to smoke.
• I can laugh without coughing. In fact I can laugh hysterically without coughing.
• Singing out loud makes me feel good.
• I am learning to let things go. 
• It is okay to have feelings (anxiety, anger, sadness, fear, etc..) It is how I deal with those feelings that matter.
• I am finding different ways of coping with stress.
• Herbal tea with a bit of honey is a great way to relax at the end of the day. (And so much healthier than smoking)
• Life is full of ups and downs and smoking won't change that. 
• My thoughts can change my attitude. Positive thoughts bring on a positive attitude. 
• I don't need to drink as much coffee in the morning to get going.
• My skin looks better. My teeth appear whiter.
• After almost 30 years of smoking, I have gone 100 days without a cigarette. 
• My son is proud of me.
• I am proud of myself.

My journey has really only just begun. I have a long way to go still but I have taken that first step and I am going to remain focused on the positives. The support and positive reinforcement I received from everyone here on this site made quitting easier and helped me through the hard times. Thank you. 

Onward and Upward!