Slept with the patch on but I had vivid dreams and difficulty sleeping. I tried taking a small dose of benadryl before bed but it didn't help much so I took the patch off in the middle of the night. Woke up and immediately put on a new patch. I let the dog out, which is my time to smoke. Instead I sat on the couch and did two 5 minute guided relaxation meditation from you tube. Yes I needed two! No I don't feel bad about it. It worked and got me through the hard time. Then did the dishes which I purposely left in the sink for this morning. I even washed them by hand instead of loading the dish washer. After that it was off to the shower to get ready for the day. I let the water wash away my anxiety and breathed in the scent of the clean soap.
First hour getting up was stressful but I kept breathing, reminding myself of why I am doing this, and telling myself that it will get better. I feel calmer now. Drinking water. Planning for the day. Have my list of activities to do instead of smoke thanks to Youngatheart.7.4.12. Spending the afternoon with my fabulous son, we have plans to go out and do fun activities. Maybe even dinner out. I tend to avoid that since it would inhibit my smoking but now that I am not smoking, I can enjoy it. Thinking of finding a nice little place on the water with an outdoor patio.
I know I will have difficult times today but I am planning for them. Blogging helps relieve the stress. Finding an outlet for the stress and cravings helps to remind me of the reasons I am quitting.