I'm not sure what I'm doing

Blog Post created by stephanie1067 on May 20, 2017

Hi - 

Today is day 6 of my quitting after 30 years of smoking.  I am 49 and tired of it.  Tired of worrying when it will kill me and wondering how it will kill me.  I am on the patch 21 mg.  Today was so hard.  I craved from morning until now.  I worked all week my first 5 days and today I was home and it was hard to be home where I always smoke.  All of a sudden I just started crying so much and was so sad and had no desire to participate in the world whatsoever.  


I had bronchitis for a couple weeks and was so sick and still trying to smoke and coughed and coughed until I would almost vomit.  Finally my 15 year old daughter took my cigarettes and I didn't fight her.  I put a patch on and said this is ridiculous.  But it's hard today.  So I decided to try to read up on quitting to keep myself motivated and found this site.  I'm not sure what I'm doing or how this works but I have been reading a lot of other peoples stories and want to say thank you for sharing.  I hope I can be as strong as you and I hope if there's anyone who quit around the same time as me, maybe we could do this together?  It's kind of cool because I ended up quitting on Mother's Day!  What a great gift to my mom, my kids and of course myself.  I just hope I can keep it up.


Thank you for reading.  Nice to meet any of you who read this!