I did not smoke yesterday. I am triggered to smoke today. Another grey rainy day so depression is present. I have not planned healthy meals so eating unhealthy food which makes me feel bad. I am angry, frustrated, and hopeless about the dysfunction at work. I feel the tension inside me all the time. I am annoyed at my coworkers for not doing their jobs correctly. I don't want to be here. I have a week and a half left and I will be at my new job.
To stay smoke free I am praying and checking in here. My cravings are not very strong but I need to practice recovery every day to stay smokefree long term. I can't ignore cravings and white knuckle it.