Day 11

[stAn3]

I had a bad dream. I laid in bed. It felt so bad. The emotion passed after about an hour. I'm still in a bad mood, keep thinking of smoking. It is not a craving, the urge to smoke is not strong. When the disease talks to me, I am able to counter the thoughts with reality. My smoke pain has come back. That was a trigger strangely enough. The pain I associate with smoking (chest pain, stomach pain) makes me think of smoking. This disease is insane. Glad that I don't want to smoke and I'm work my recovery program.