I am still smoke free. I had cravings this weekend. Maybe it's just the time of the week. I know Day 7 is supposed to be filled with cravings. I did not smoke. I had to use some willpower to get though it although I have been working my recovery program. I had that same feeling that I relapsed over last time. I talked about it instead of smoking. I have some peace right now. I started my light therapy yesterday. I feel back to normal mentally. I helps that I don't smoke or use caffeine.
I still miss the up and down of addiction. This addiction is strange. If you are abstinence for months or even years, smoking for a day or two makes smoking the new norm. I'm still not used to not smoking. My body and my mind aren't.
I haven't had any cravings so far today. I hope they get fewer and less intense as time goes by.
I remind myself self that the cravings will go away if I don't smoke. If I smoke, I'm guaranteed to have more cravings. My life will center around feeding my addiction. The only way to get rid of cravings is not to smoke.