I'm feeling some sadness/depression. I feel the draw of wanting to smoke. I am praying, meditating, applying all the tools.
Also, I can breath normally. My chest doesn't hurt. I don't smell I'm grateful for these things.
I am making a commitment to feel my feelings. It's rough. The suicidal thoughts are coming back. Smoking isn't going to kill me. It is going to make me sick. So suicidal thoughts are not a valid reason for smoking. Smoking is not a valid method of suicide.
Also, these thoughts and feelings pass. I might feel happy tomorrow.