I got a week not smoking. The desperation is gone. The disease is still here, beckoning me to give up on not smoking. I'm praying. I made a commitment to myself not to smoke today and came here to take the daily pledge. I wish the pull of addiction would go away. I don't want to deal with it. Nevertheless. I am making a commitment to call someone if the urge to smoke gets too strong. I will also read another chapter of Journey to Freedom. And I will take my psych mess because I'm slightly depressed.