Share your quitting journey
I remember it was a girl. It was 1977 and I was 17 years old and I met her at the local swimming pool. She was beautiful and sexy and a smoker. She lit one up and said "Come on...try it....it will make you look cool and hip and older." etc. I didn't care about all that but what I cared about was getting my "hedge clipped" if you know what I mean. Come on, I was a stupid 17 year old kid with my hormones raging. So I did. I smoked one and then another and within a day or two, I was hooked. But who cares? I got what I wanted. 🙂 Yeah....now I care.
In July of 2017, as my birthday was getting close, I thought to myself "Wow....I have been smoking for 40 years" and it's fixin to be 41 years. Then I thought "No way! There is no way I am going to tell people I have smoked for 41 years......no more....that's it......I am DONE. From now on I am going to say "I quit smoking a month ago....a year ago and maybe some day.....40 years ago" instead. I quit on that day and I am proud to say it has been 54 days since I touched a smoke. Not the longest I have gone but this is different.
Yes I have tried to quit many times throughout my life. The longest I say I went without smoking was 3 months but I didn't really quit. I would bum one here and there from friends when we were all hooched up and drinking together. Bum one after a meal. Bum one after a good hedge clipping. And I would smoke one here and there when my stress level was high. So I was not smoking a pack a day like before so to me I quit. But I didn't and soon after 3 months I was back to a pack a day.
This time was different. I used my past failures as a learning experience. I made notes to myself in my head. I just made mental notes that I can sum up here:
Since that day I have not smoked at all. Not one. At first I used the patch. I had tried gum before and hated it. The patch worked well for the first 7 days. I was at level one 21mg per patch and went to the store to get the next weeks patches. As I was holding the $37 box I thought "this is the same cost as cigarettes. Am I now going to get hooked on the patch?" So at that point I admitted to myself that if I am going to quit, then I am going to do it cold turkey. No tricks, no gum, no pills and no patches. It's all me or I must accept failure. So I put the box down and went cold turkey. I set my mind to it and did it.
The challenges:
Lastly, I am 99.99999% sure I will never smoke again. I am past the hurdle I think. I watch people smoke and I can smell it and it makes me sick. I can smell people walk by me who just went outside to smoke and I can smell the stench on them. The first time that happened I thought "OMG is that how I smelled when I walked in from smoking?" Never again. I hope this helps someone out there but I really wrote this for myself. I am proud of me.
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