The time passed so slowly for the first week, but since then it's literally flown by. Every time I crave a cigarette, I see a trigger, or I see a friend being addicted I am thankful. I am thankful that I was able to remove myself from the cycle long enough to pull the wool from my eyes. So many months of quitting for half of the week and smoking for half of the week and feeling terrible about it but still smoking. This month has been so much easier. I don't worry, I don't feel terrible, I just don't smoke. It is both incredibly simple and incredibly complicated. I do other things instead, and now I feel better. It is easier to wake up in the morning than it has been in years.
When I felt that I was wanting a cigarette with any seriousness, I pulled myself away from others and delved into this site. I read about people in all states of quit. I found subcatagories about relapse prevention I had never seen before! I raided the best of ex. And it helped me keep my brain and motivation on track. You folks on here are the best. I am incredibly grateful to find you.
No one has a magic trick for life, but I get to make my own choices. Everyone makes their own choices. This is the beauty and the pain.