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OMG. I've just run into the worst, most intense craving ever. As I write I am doing some deep breathing exercises. I have to post, though. The White Sticks Devil Monster ******* is calling me very, very loudly. And I almost answered, "Okay. Yes. Let's go smoke!"

No! No! No!

Anyone out there right about this very second?

I'm still in my bathrobe and that is all that is saving me at. this. very. second!

This might very well be one of those moments that calls for a piece if nic gum, huh? Anything other than going to the store.

Thanks.

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indingrl.01.06.2011 Oct 27, 2020 11:24 AM
Just bite into a lemon peel and all - it will bring you BACK into the moment of your n.o.p.e day
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AnnetteMM Oct 27, 2020 11:35 AM
I'm here. Don't do it. You'll regret it, and have to start all over again. If you can wait out the craving without giving in to the nicotine, you'll be a WINNER! Distract yourself with anything else you can think of doing.
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marciem Oct 27, 2020 12:10 PM
Many of us here redpepper . You're doing the right thing by posting here instead of running out buying something you do NOT need, you want. A crave isn't a command, and you won't die from not smoking. You feel like a squirrel trapped in a coffee can, but these cravings will go away whether you smoke or not. They will only go away permanently if you do NOT smoke!
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marciem Oct 27, 2020 12:12 PM
If you like jigsaw puzzles, or even if you don't, give one a try to distract yourself while you continue to do deep breathing.

JigZone.com Jigsaw Puzzle Game
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marciem Oct 27, 2020 12:15 PM
At this point in time, you're almost 10 days quit, so I don't think adding nicotine into the mix is the best thing. This is one of the last throes of real misery brought to you by Sir/Madame Nicodemon.

BUT, if it is a kill somebody or smoke time, a piece of gum is the better choice. IMO.
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Youngatheart.7.4.12 Oct 27, 2020 12:19 PM
Or count backwards from 10,000, or think of girls'/boys' names or US towns for each letter of the alphabet, or march in place, or sing aloud to your favorite music, or put your head in the freezer and take a DEEEEP breath of cold air, or call a friend.....just DO NOT let that smoking thought rattle around in your brain unchallenged.
Clean our a drawer or a closet, take a bath, or a shower --- get busy!!!
Hope it's gone by now! And you have learned a lesson - you CAN beat any crave thrown at you!!!

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Barbscloud Oct 27, 2020 12:20 PM
Are you hanging in there? Coming to the Ex early on save my quit several times. Can you for walk? It really helps to refocus your thoughts. You can do it!!!!
Barb
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Giulia Oct 27, 2020 12:23 PM
Repeat after me:

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Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Oct 27, 2020 12:40 PM
How are you doing redpepper? I'm so glad that you posted help whew some cravings are pretty powerful that's for sure but you are doing great and we're all here to help you in any way we can....
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Giulia Oct 27, 2020 12:45 PM
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redpepper Oct 27, 2020 2:02 PM
12:49pm

HEY! I think I might be getting closer to getting out of the woods, maybe. Thanks, everyone. I have just logged back on. All your comments are helpful. And funny thing, I've done several in the last couple of hours since I posted my call for help.

I logged out.
Plugged laptop in.
Jumped into boiling shower.
Scrubbed, loofah-ed
Added scented everything--shampoo, conditioner, body scrub, essential oils, smelly lotions etc.
After shower:
lots of extra skin conditioning, scented.
hair leave in conditioning
flossed
gargled with hydrogen peroxide
brushed,teeth, lovingly

put on a patch (please hold the judgments about that if you have them; this is what I have to do)
chewed a piece of gum
poured some fresh iced tea
drank some

LOTS AND LOTS OF BREATHING ALL THIS TIME
LOTS AND LOTS OF SPEAKING OUT LOUD AFFIRMATIONS

10 minutes pass, then 15, then 20, and so on...

got dressed
walked dog
almost .8 mile
spoke to neighbors
pet dog while on walk pauses

continued breathing; continued affirmations

came back
fixed a lovely sandwich
pickles
chips
caff free diet coke

now here
just read what you've written and some other stuff here

This monkey is STILL ON MY BACK

next thing on quit plan tells me to lie down, relax, completely detach from my mind for a while
for me that means turn on the tv, cover myself with a fuzzy blanket, close the curtains and hug my dog

unless i am in the mountains or surrounded by a flower garden (in bloom)
the above sofa thing is my happy, safe place

I'm pissed at this addiction right now. But I am thankful to all of you.

I have other things I wanted AND needed to do today. But until this B-T-H gets off my back I cannot afford the risk of leaving my home. I just can't.

It is toooooo strong right now.

I am staying logged in until I read some more. I'm here.

Thanks, everyone. F----K cigarettes!

...gonna eat some candy. dang it.
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- Barbscloud @ redpepper on Oct 27, 2020 2:26 PM
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- marciem @ redpepper on Oct 27, 2020 2:30 PM
  GREAT JOB, redpepper ... keep on doing what you're doing. It WILL end. If it didn't none of us would be here to tell the tale or support you. We're not super-people, just folks with the same determination as you have who stuck with it through these mighty battles. I remember feeling bruised after one of them, though no physical thing touched me.
  
  Remember, NONE of what you're going through is because you're quitting... It's happening because you smoked! Blame it on the smoking, always. . There will never be an easier softer time for you to break free of this addiction than this time right now. You have 10 days or close to it. You don't ever want to go through day 1 again or day 10 ever again, so the only way to guarantee that is do not smoke no matter what .
  
  Again, good job, keep lovin' that dog and cuddle up in your happy place and let everything else go for the day. Enjoy the sweet smelling you and REMEMBER it. You don't ever want to smell like stinkum cigarettes again!!
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  - redpepper @ marciem on Oct 27, 2020 3:44 PM
    sigh
    ya'll are so helpful
    i couldn't do it without
    so appreciative
    thanks millions
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- redpepper @ redpepper on Oct 27, 2020 2:31 PM
  PS, Note to self: Probably not the best idea to watch the news while experiencing a massive crave.
  Oh my!
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- Pnicklin @ redpepper on Oct 27, 2020 11:39 PM
  Me too I almost sucked a lemon today just to see if it would work lucky ive got my dogs We go out when it gets bad
  they hate cigarettes too.
  hang on it will all be over soon.
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Christine13 Oct 27, 2020 2:22 PM
I'm so glad you are hanging in there. You don't want to loose your precious quit at this point like I did.
I find lying down helps to. How about some ice cold water. Hang in there, I will too!!
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Youngatheart.7.4.12 Oct 27, 2020 3:30 PM
NOOOOOO news! The only thing you REALLY need to know right now is if bad weather is coming (and your phone will alert you) or if the world is coming to an end (in which case it doesn't matter whether you know it or not!).
I turned the news off about four months ago. I DVR more of a local news magazine show which gives me headlines, sports and weather - and if I see a politician's or commentator's face, I FF until they're gone, and I have not missed a THING!!!!
It IS going to get easier - hang in there until it does!
Stay close!

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- redpepper @ Youngatheart.7.4.12 on Oct 27, 2020 3:43 PM
  Thnkyouthnkyouthnkyouthnkyouthnkyou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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elvan Oct 27, 2020 4:31 PM
You are doing GREAT, you cane here instead of smoking! I had no cigarettes at home & l spent a great deal of time in my pajamas with no makeup & uncombed hair, There was no way l was going ANYWHERE! I also read EX, ate Sour Patch Kids, & cuddled under a soft throw. I am SO GLAD l never went back. No crave ever killed anyone, well, not that l. KNOW of, there can be a lot of annoying people out there.
Ellen
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Cousin-Itt Oct 27, 2020 7:42 PM
See your post for help was awesome You're doing it right redpepper. Seeing all the responses you received reaffirmed what I already knew about the EX and the great people on it

If you like the news I always go to the "Good News Network" It great reading about different things and not getting P/O or disgusted
I found about 4 months into my quit that if you add music to the breathing exercise it worked wonders for me

Carl
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Christine_Aka_Legend Oct 27, 2020 11:44 PM
You did a great job getting through a bad craving. You took this addiction head on and let it know who was the boss. Great job!!!
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JACKIE1-25-15 Oct 28, 2020 9:55 AM
Hang tough, Never give in, Never give up. Stay close. NOPE will keep you free. No matter what is happening in your life.
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noetoez Oct 28, 2020 11:43 AM
Checking in redpepper
How are you doing today? I read your post and man, it felt so familiar. You did the right thing to come here and blog it out. There were days in the beginning where that urge was all consuming. Those days happen less as time goes on, promise promise. I reached a point where I would wonder aloud "Ok, but when does it get better?!?" No one could answer that for me, as every journey is different. But it DOES.

It takes real strength to get away from an addiction. You are doing great!
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- redpepper @ noetoez on Oct 28, 2020 1:24 PM
  hey noetoez--
  
  thanks for talking about how you relate. it really helps when folks tell wht what they went through. that's one reason i love reading the blogs. i go way back to the beginnings of folks' smoke-free time and read and read.
  
  on that note, i'm about to blog, too.
  
  i made it, but still not in the clear this AM.
  
  feel like i am literally dodging bullets in a war zone, and i am standing in a wide open field, unable to f--ing run. and i have only a tiny weapon yet (my several days smoke free). i'm quite weary, honestly.
  
  lemme go blog some of this crap out. hope it will help.
  
  Thanks for being here. Thank you so much.
  
  redpepper
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  - Youngatheart.7.4.12 @ redpepper on Oct 28, 2020 3:10 PM
    This is a WORK-in progress in the earliest days. You need to sip cold water, go for a walk, sip some more cold water, eat some frozen grapes, march in place, call a friend, sip some cold water, do a few jumping jack motions, write down something you are thankful for today, write a blog outlining your feelings, read other blogs, sip some more cold water, go for another walk..................................
    Don't let those crave thoughts rattle around in your brain unchallenged.
    This takes effort in the early days, but I promise it will get easier - I PROMISE!
    Until it does, get busy and STAY busy!
    Hang in there!
    
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    - redpepper @ Youngatheart.7.4.12 on Nov 11, 2020 10:12 AM
      I did. And you saved me. Ya'll all did.
      I jumped up and got f--in- B-U-S-Y not smoking.
      
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