Wow, what a rollercoaster of emotions...I can say for sure I was not expecting the intensity or the range of wild emotions I have been experiencing for the past 5 days, and it is starting to wear me down. So I have read all the literature about relapse...am I setting myself up and all that. I have to admit the thinking is a lot the same as when I threw the last quit away. I am an obsessive thinker anyway and am having great difficulty letting those smoking thoughts go. I know for a fact I do not want to smoke and have been doing the suggestions to the best of my ability. I read the 101 things to do, but being in the personal care home there is a limit to what I can do and am bored with most of the stuff.
So, anyway, It is not easy for me to ask for help but I am sending an SOS.
Also hate the holidays. Without family they are so difficult for me. They are having a holiday dinner here tonight and residents can invite family. it is so depressing because I am one of the few who has no one..sure does feel awful.