I was on my way to the laundry room and it is right across from the clubhouse. I ran into a friend...a smoking buddy. The two of us were always trying to quit together for 6 years. A year ago he was in the hospital and a nursing home because he had throat cancer. They had to do an emergency tracheotomy in order for him to breath...and also had a feeding tube because he couldn't swallow. He went through chemo and radiation. I was with him the through it all. I can't believe he is still smoking. Still has a tracheotomy. Has to put his finger over the tube in order to talk...totally raspy. I stopped and talked to him and didn't even haveasier a craving. In fact I wanted to cry for him...I don't ever want to be like that!!!
Anyway..another guy pulled up in his golfcart and stopped and said he hasn't seen me in awhile...he's a smoker who I've sat with many times and smoked on the patio. I told him I quit smoking finally for good!! Told him 16 days. I was surprised that seeing him didn't trigger me. I only felt sorry for him because he has to smoke. I told him I have a book that he can read and about EX. Just to email me and I will send him the info.
That was definitely a test for me and I made it surprisingly with no cravings
Tomorrow I go down there to exercise and I'm not as fearful now! Just as long as I stay off the patio!
Deborah 16 DOF