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I can't stop crying...I need help!

princessdeb
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‎06-17-2018 01:22 PM

I am facing a major emotional trigger right now!!!   Like I've said before, I was sneaking around smoking and hiding from my husband...  we had a rough day yesterday and I said to him "I made it through without smoking!!" He asked me  "how long has it been?  A year?"  I was honest and said 8 days....he started laughing and got sarcastic with me...he was pissed, I don't blame him. He kept saying he should have known and basically was telling me I'll never make it I told him that I was sorry that I was an addict to nicotine, but this time I feel different! This time I'm done.  I told him I needed his support and he hasn't said one word to me.  He won't talk to me and I can't stop crying.  I'm trying to be positive but all I want to do is go down to the clubhouse and smoke on the patio!!  HELP!

Deborah 9 DOF 

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I'm a retired Business Manager and Make-Up Artist for Estee Lauder Cosmetics. I love living near the beach in beautiful, sunny San Diego, California. I've smoked for 45 years...I remember the first time like it was yesterday. I was in 8th grade...13 years old...a circle of about 6 girls. One of the girls had a cigarette from her brother. We passed it around and I remember coughing but tried it again the 2nd time around. I smoked to be cool when I was in high school. Smoked at parties and the weekends. After I graduated and lived on my own, I smoked a pack a day....everyday until yesterday...6/8/18. I'm here because I want to quit more than anything. I'm 60 years old and pushing my luck! I want to live healthy for 20 more years. I love life!!!