The day started out fine. I woke up, took my dog for a walk and went to a diner and had breakfast. (Outdoor seating only here in LA due to covid). But as the day wore on, I just felt like the walls in my apartment were going to cave in on me. I took my dog on many walks and even played with him in the park by my apartment. But I just don’t feel comfortable today. I’m not sure why. I don’t want to smoke, just am feeling some angst. I just feel like I don’t fit in anywhere. I know there are people who love and care about me, including people on this website. But i can’t take this isolation any more. Thank God the holidays are coming up so that I can surround myself with family and friends. And I am grateful for what I do have—a job, housing, my dog, my health, my smobriety, and supportive family and friends. But this coronavirus situation is flaring up my anxiety, depression and general discomfort. I hope this passes. Anyway thank you to everyone here who has been encouraging me and helping me along this journey. 164 DOF and still going strong. Love to you all.
