75 Days

Blog Post created by mpnaegle on Aug 17, 2020

It’s strange.  I have made it 75 days with little to no cravings (except in the beginning)...but tonight i am  getting them.  Bad.  I think it’s from stress—i have a lot of money stress—dental surgery i am going to have done, and I just found a growth on my dog’s eyelid, so I’m going to have to take him to the vet.  So more financial crap to work through.  Don’t get me wrong—I won’t smoke.  But it’s so unsettling tonight.  I guess the only thing I can do is breathe, keep my head up and pray, and hope for the best. Honestly though, this is the first really bad night I’ve had in this whole quit.  I know everything will work out and smoking now would only make it all worse.  So NOPE, not tonight.  I am just angry that once again I have some money saved and it’s going toward more bills.  I’ll get through this.  I will make it through.  NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE.