hi everyone. There are a lot of reasons, but i just can’t shake this bad mood tonight. For starters, i am working too much. I am lonely, i feel like i have no life because i am always working. I have no money because i have so many bills. Well,am trying to save $$ from not smoking and so far ive had some success. Everything was just irritating me today. I started the day fine, but as it wore on, things started getting to me. I won’t smoke, but i just want to pull my hair out. Maybe i just need a shower and early bedtime. Maybe i need a lobotomy. Maybe i need to pack up everything and move to Mexico. I dont know. All i know is i hate pretty much everything right now. I can’t find the silver lining tonight. And dont get me wrong. I will not smoke. But nothing seems to fit tonight. At all. Aftet a good night’s sleep maybe i wont feel quite so upset. But honestly right now I feel horrid. 8 days smoke free. I am happy about that, just not about much else. When will this all fall back into place? Or better yet, when will I be happy with the way things are? I guess nothing left to do but take a hot shower, drink some chamomile tea and get some sleep. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. XO
