Tonight I experienced my first bout of what I call “nic-Fit rage.” I ordered Chinese food for dinner for delivery...at 3:40 PM local time. It was supposed to be delivered about 40 minutes later...well, I waited. And waited. And waited. It finally got to my house at 5:38 PM, nearly 2 hours later. I was furious. I screamed, threw a plate against the wall. My poor dog hid under my bed. I was polite but short with the driver, and needless to say he got no tip. So I broke a plate and probably freaked neighboring tenants out. Not to mention my poor dachshund/chihuahua who finally came and sat by me about 5 minutes after my fit. After all, he wanted some food too lol.
But, I did not smoke. But I was mad enough to want to. But I didn’t. I calmed down, ate my food, and am now trying to get my inner calm. It’s the first real anger I’ve experienced in about 3 weeks, and definitely the first since I quit. I’ll be ok now. Just going to watch some tv, and go to bed early tonight. In less than 4 hours I will have made it 5 days. So it’ll be ok. 5 days, $50.00 saved. God help me. XO Mark