I slept in til 9 this morning, very rare for me since I am an early bird. But it felt so good! I stayed up very late, til almost 1 am watching the Sopranos on Amazon Prime. I think I am the only person in the world who never watched this series. It feels really nice not having to wake up to feed the dragon, which I would have done 26 days ago. I would have woke up without enough sleep to get a cup of coffee and start chain smoking on a Saturday morning. That sounds completely insane to me! But I did it for decades. Every day. What has happened to the woman who used to do that, seemingly so naturally? Is there some kind of mental switch that has been flipped? Who is this alien who has invaded my life? I am not complaining, not one iota! It just amazes me sometimes. That little nagging urge is fading, I don't remember the last one. I don't remember the last time I missed smoking. That is some kind of wonderful, awesome gift! I would miss smoking the second I put out a cigarette. Now it's is just gone! WOW!
We are going to take my dad out tonight for a nice steak dinner. And I keep thinking that I really want a margarita! And make it a double, with lots of salt and some tortilla chips and salsa to snack on when I drink it. Wanting this so much, is this a warning sign? I need to ask that of you who have done this for a lot longer time than I have. I will only have one, I am driving because I have the most room in my car. But why the sudden crave for alcohol? Maybe I am making too much of it and thinking about a margarita is totally normal especially if you know you are going out to a nice restaurant that makes a great margarita. I do know this, I have zero desire to smoke! What a blessing!!
Peace and have an awesome evening!
Melissa 25 DOF
