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3 WEEKS

millon03
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7 15 121

It really feels like 3 months! Time is not feeling like real time lately. Days go by in a flash and weeks can take forever! I sit down to work and look up and realize I haven't moved from my chair in almost 3 hours. I realized this morning that my smoking routines really controlled my time and the manner in which I managed my time. Every 1/2 hour up and smoking a cigarette. Two on the way to work, 3 before bed, 2 after a meal, one before a shower, 2 while getting ready for work. Now, time just kind of flows without those breaks. I think that might be why I get the feeling like I am forgetting to do something, because in reality I am. I am forgetting how to live a life in which my time was controlled by when and where I smoked. Now I can use my time anyway I want and I am kind of clueless on how to use my time. I don't think sitting in front of a computer for 3 hours is good for me or my body. I could go swimming, which I do. I could learn to use my new camera I bought myself last year. I could pull out my cords and beads and start working on my macrame again. I could sew, brush the dog, vacuum, wash the floors, clean the kitchen or bathrooms, wash the car, put bulbs in the ground... But then I sit here not sure where to begin and on what...

Today is 21 days and I am very happy for these last 21 days.  I did not think I could do it! But here it is, done if I make it to the end of the day.  I have every intention of doing so. N.O.P.E. Ain't going back! It's all about the attitude baby!

Peace!

M. DOF 21 

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Living in New Mexico, which I love very much, originally from Calif. The sky is so big and blue and the land is so vast if you choose to leave the city for the day. NM is a wonderful place for meditation and contemplation.