Wow, 6 full days under my belt and beginning day 7. Yesterday I did a whole lotta nada, binged on a show all day and ate too many sweets and snacks. Feeling like my pj's are a little tight this morning. Can't make that a whole new habit, that wouldn't be much better, I would just be suffocating myself in fat instead of smoke. As it is I need to lose 80-90 lbs. But I keep telling myself, slow your roll, one life saving effort at a time!
Just one little blip yesterday morning, just one moment where I thought, "I need a cigarette", then I thought, "Shut up stupid!", and it was gone. I don't ever want to smoke that nasty little weed again, that rolled up death in nice white pretty paper. NOPE. I realize I don't need to watch for cravings, I don't need to watch for temptations, I need to watch my attitude, I need to watch my level of happiness, contentment, my stress, my fears, my worries. I need to watch my patterns of thought because that is where the next one is in hiding, waiting for a momentary lapse in reason.
I can't wait to see my sister Barbara next month and let her know I finally stopped. She is going to be so happy. I don't want to tell her now, not yet. I have only told my dad and the cigar smoking in our office has slowed way down. I am grateful for that! I am grateful I woke up an ex-smoker. Have a blessed day!
Peace...
M.