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Tomorrow is D-Day

Blog Post created by kevinw121006 on Oct 18, 2019

I quit smoking cigarettes two years ago using Juuls. That was a good thing. However, the Juul has become like an appendage. Constantly, and I mean constantly, vaping. Anywhere and everywhere. All day, every day. 

 

It may be less bad, it's still not good. The current media freakout didn't really phase me, but I'm not kidding myself either. The constant coughing and the mucus build up and the scratchy throat, being short of breathe, and the weird, not sure how to describe it feeling in my chest.  

 

So I'm quitting for my long term health. I'm 34, and I've smoked since I was 14-15. Every day for the last 20 years. And tonight is my last night... I hope!

 

I almost quit a little over a month ago, but after doing some reading, decided to wait until after my big work conference that happened this past week. So I set my quit date for the Saturday after the conference, shared the date with my wife, and now here it is. 

 

I know this isn't going to be a fun next few days. I quit drinking and drugs 13 years ago, so I have some pretty good experience in dealing with addiction and the very pleasurable experience that is withdrawal. I already threw out all my extra pods. I was going to hang on to the actual device, you know, just in case. But I talked to someone tonight and brought that up. I was telling on myself and realized that was a reservation. Can't have those going into this. An addict's mind always knows about those reservations and waits for the right time to pounce. So the device is going in the trash when I go to bed.

 

It's weird. A large part of me doesn't want to do this. Not yet. Why now. Maybe later. Your parents are in town next weekend, just give it a couple more weeks. How about when you start a new job. Try cutting back. Be more disciplined.

 

Yep, those are familiar voices. It's the Master of Puppets pulling my strings.

 

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