kaycod2020

Down the drain

Blog Post created by kaycod2020 on Dec 7, 2020

I smoked 6 cigarettes today I feel like I just flushed my quit down the drain. Maybe I'm not mentally ready to quit. I know I want to but do I really WANT to?. I don't want to keep putting myself in this position. Am I a quitter? Quite literally yes I feel like I'm giving up on quitting. I just don't have the strength for this battle anymore. It's like 1 step forward and 6 steps back. Every day is harder than the next I feel like I'm starving for crack. I was an addict before and this is just as bad. I mean just give me one hit and I'll be fine . I feel like I'm pulling my own teeth out.

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