It's been a while since I've posted, as things have been super crazy at work lately.....but somehow, I made it!! I made it to the 2 month mark....1/2 way through NML and bee bopping along....the cravings haven't been too bad. every now and again, I've gotten a lttle "ping" where I momentarily think "I should go out and have a smoke" but then I chuckle to myself, asking myself "where in the heck did that come from?" and shake my head, reminding myself that I don't smoke anymore and move about my business.
Last Friday was probably my worst crave in a while, although it wasn't mind numbingly crazy, it was stronger than I had been used to so I did take a bit of my Lobelia before leaving work, but once I made it home that evening, all was well and I felt really good that I made it another day....I got into my comfy clothes, made a cup of hot tea and didn't move off of the couch the rest of the night.
When I first joined this site, one of my very first posts was a concern regarding the smell of cigarette smoke, it by no means was "intoxicating" but I wasn't sickened by the smell either and was worried that might mean that I would fail and maybe wasn't ready. The support and encouragement that not everyone will experience things the same was overwhelming and truly needed. I now, 60 days later can say that the smell of cigarette smoke now almost gives me a headache when I pass someone and can smell it. I now can smell someone sitting next to me who has just come in from a cancer break and reek of the smell of the outdoors and nicotine together. I can't believe that used to be me. UCK!!!
As I reflect on my journey so far, I can see light at the end of the tunnel....I haven't been more motivated or excited to be called a quitter....I still take things one day at a time, and know that this adventure is far from over....but I feel like I can stop, take a deep breath and turn around and look back and actually see the progress I have made. There is no way I could have done this without all of you. so from the bottom of my toes, I want to shout THANK YOU!!! to everyone for their kind words and support over these last few months...I really feel like I am among friends and I am truly grateful for each and every one of you.
May you all have a wonderful smoke free Friday and let's look forward to the weekend!!