Today is day 47. A long time and a short time.
It has been a reatively unstressful quit, but this past week feel into a melancholy state and had a rough 2 days where I wanted to smoke. And the urge was very strong. It made me very mad at myself for wanting to go hide behind a cigarette instead of just deal with my emotions. I came out of it yesterday without a puff.
Have learned something about myself....that I am worth it, a strong independent woman (with the help of EX) and I do not need to ever feel bad about who I am
Finished my chores and did some ex reading and am off shortly heading south about 2 hours to visit a friend and oh yes do some biking riding and spend the evening with a barbecue.