Was it the void of disappointment?
The void of failure?
The void of anger?
The void of anxiety?
The void of fear?
Did the rush of nicotine fix all the voids?
Did it solve your problems or was it a mirage you allowed yourself to believe?
You don't need smoking to fill those voids.
You can let it go
"You are responsible for your life, for your feelings, for your actions, and for every result you get.
You are in control of your thoughts. You have the ability to stop thinking about something and to start thinking about something else.
Once you take personal responsibility for your life and actions, you will begin to improve your ability to respond to external factors you may not have control over."