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Sometimes You Get Stuck, Smoking Is Not Required.

JonesCarpeDiem
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      An old memory came to me last night (1970's) but I couldn't remember the name of the person that had come to mind. My wife knew her through the acting business. She had taken two kittens from a litter of ours. Her husband had made our wedding rings by melting down a large gold nugget style ring of the name of a group I had been with

but I couldn't remember her name. 

This kind of minutia puts me in a tailspin.

I stayed up 2 hours later than normal trying to remember her name.

It finally came to me.

She was the housekeeper in Two And A Half Men but I wasn't a watcher of the show.

      These kind of events along with losing family and old acquaintances to old age and health problems are the things that trouble me. I don't feel like I'm getting alzheimers because I still have the detailed memories but, it still frustrates me.

These are the times I would have smoked a pack of cigarettes.

But, I don't do that anymore.

(I slept in to make up the two hours)

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Hello, My name is Dale. I was quit 18 months before joining this site and had participated on another site during that time. I learned a lot there and brought it with me. I joined this site the first week of August 2008. I didn't pressure myself to quit. HOW I QUIT I didn't count, I didn't deny myself to get started. When I considered quitting (at a friends request to influence his brother to quit), I simply told myself to wait a little longer. No denial, nothing painful. After 4 weeks I was down to 5 cigarettes from a pack a day. The strength came from proving to myself, I didn't need to smoke because I normally would have smoked. Simple yes? I bought the patch. I forgot to put one on on the 4th day. I needed it the next day but the following week I forgot two days in a row I put one in my wallet with a promise to myself that I would slap it on and wait an hour rather than smoke. It rode in my wallet my first year.There's nothing keeping any of you from doing this. It doesn't cost a dime. This is about unlearning something you've done for a long time. The nicotine isn't the hard part. Disconnecting from the psychological pull, the memories and connected emotions is. :-) Time is the healer.