I am very sad putting chaos to sleep makes me feel like I failed him...but I also know he wasnt acting like chaos, I could tell by the way he couldn't make it out of his cat carrier he was in pain...
I still feel him hopping on my bed and I heard his purr last night I know he hasn't left my side we are soul mates of course hes waiting for me I would do the same for him...I guess it pays to me enlightened hear shit no one else can hear or seeing things no one else is aware of. he does energy work on me every night...
I will get find my inner peace. he did not die in excoriating pain. I spared him that much at least. my old massage teacher told me putting him was apart of taking care of him..it soo sucks being an a adult.
love,
june
