No more feeling sorry for myself....today I was proud of myself! Cried a little but they were tears of joy. Told my family (brother & sis in law) that I couldn't come Easter cause they both smoke & John seemed ok about it, well Judi call me today & the conversation shocked me. They're not the most supportive people but anyway she said to me that she was a little steamed at me cause I wasn't coming & that we are the only family we have left ....anyway they both told me they were willing to go out on the porch or in the garage to smoke. I was stunned!> Thanks to all of you wonderful, supportive people!