indingrl.01.06.2011

Prayer for MYSELF

Blog Post created by indingrl.01.06.2011 on Sep 5, 2017

Please I am talking about ME and not anyone else....so take what HELPS...and let go of the rest....thank you...I was walking here this morning and I was praying to not give up.....life on life terms is hitting BACK TO BACK...with NO RECOVERY BREATHING IN BETWEEN... changes is constantly happening good and bad...prayer is helping ME.......... I am a RECOVERING NICOTINE ADDICT with the BIG baby in ME FROM OLD BEHAVIOR TO FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF FOR NO REASON...life is life so deal with it...that was SUGGESTED TO ME......the immaturity in ME OLD HABITS....OLD FEELINGS...OLD WAYS OF COPING.....not ACTING EMOTIONAL MATURE at handling life on lifes terms...just go with the flow...what is MY business and NOT MY BUSINESS...this OLD BABY ME IS TRYING to take ME to the pity-party....so I called the Trinity Broadcasting Network to ask for prayer that I don't give up....the woman was very loving...called me her sister and prayed so fast......like she had drank forty POTS OF CAFFINE.....I asked the Holy Spirit to help ME TO LISTEN....all I know is I am here TRYING to give out badges of ENCOURAGEMENT TO OTHERS.....and now to share MY emotions that are from EXPECTATIONS of life....people.....places....things....situations....OF MY OLD WAY OF LIFE WAYS....I WILL NOT BE A BIG BABY AND QUIT LIFE...I called for help NOT TO GIVE UP ..to ACCEPT LIFE MY LIFE AS IT IS AT THIS MOMENT.....just life on life's terms....nothing in particular...yet the life that is happening is ALL NEGATIVE CRAP.....my husbands mom is very ill and some of her children are saying she wont make it to thanksgiving....most of my friends are very ill due to physical ailments....its seems....I am letting MYSELF...not see the good with the overwhelming negatives of life just being life....my friends are getting old and suffering the consequences of life in the physical...FROM THEIR CHOICES OF OLD LIFE LIVING IN THE PAST.....some due to falling and breaking of brittle bones....some with no one to care for them at home due to insurance changes....if you don't DO THIS MEDICADE WILL NOT PAY.....I always TRY to remember to PRAY FOR OTHERS ABOVE MYSELF....yet today I had NOTHING TO GIVE.....I really didn't care at the MOMENT....I woke up and I  did PRAY FOR OTHERS FIRST....yet I notice in ME the.... false guilt.. then I remembered.......I was taught....SCREW GUILT.....I never have asked for PRAYER FOR ME...so today I let go of FALSE BELIEFS...FALSE GUILT...and called for prayer for ME...and now...I am thinking better about ME and MY LIFE in Christ Jesus....just because I have Christ does NOT mean I do NOT have to do any foot work ....I am responsible to have disciple and self-control to say....out loud and walk MY TALK....I pray and TRY to believe more and more......I am content and EMOTIONAL STABLE TODAY.....in Jesus name amen HOORAY FOR JESUS!!! Just wanted to share that it is OK to ask for prayer for MYSELF because how can I give away something I do not have to others.....so I am STAYING QUIT NO MATTER WHAT.... not using NICOTINE OVER ME...AND I AM NOT GIVING UP AND I AM VERY GRATEFUL I AM GROWING UP INSIDE AND NOT ASHAMED TO FACE ALL MY FEARS OF ADMITTING....I too need encouragement and who better to do it than MYSELF....with OTHERS LEADING BY THEIR EXAMPLES......not using nicotine over MYSELF....or letting FEAR OF SELF NEEDING PRAYER AND CALLING A PRAYER LIFE-LINE.....Gosh it is wonderful that I will remember.....r ALL God has done to bring ME this far.....GOD ALONE...God loves to hear from ALL his children.....even ME...when I am at MY weakest....to cry out and tell MYSELF...DO NOT GIVE UP.....step by step I made it here to share TODAY....the VICTORY in Christ in Jesus name amen....GOD IS LOVE....TO ALL WHO CHOOSE HIS LOVE....HIS GRACE.....THE GIFT OF THE PRESENT.....PRAYER to ask for HELP AND NOT TO GIVE UP! Thanks for letting ME share with all of you who MAY have to encourage themselves too.

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