harderthanirealized

Wow--This is Tough!!

Blog Post created by harderthanirealized on Oct 15, 2018

Today is day 2 for me. First attempt with the real desire to want to quit. I'm 34 years old and have been smoking since I was 14. If I had known it would be this hard to "let them go" I never would have picked them up in the first place. Do we all feel that way or is it just me?

My main reason to quit is that I found out I'm expecting my second child. I'm only about 10 weeks along, but I don't want my choices to interfere with my fetus' health. My daughter has been asking me to quit for years, so I have to include her in this desire as well. As selfish as it sounds I don't want to quit. I also don't want to be diagnosed with something later in life that I may have been able to prevent by quitting. 

 

I have felt extreme emotions of anger, depression, hopelessness, and moodiness in this attempt. I feel no joy yet; no sense of accomplishment or success. I literally feel like I'm crawling out of my skin!! It's awful!!! Does anyone have any advice on when this feeling will pass? I'm drinking cranberry juice and keeping water close by. Also chewing on a straw constantly. Golly--I now feel like the drug addict I have been for years!!! I just want to feel better. 

 

Thanks for encouraging me---I have very little outside of this group. 

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