What a great sunny day on the playground! It feels great to be here, and I love seeing all my friends here. And new people are showing up and joining in the fun! Sometimes when I come here, I am quieter, and watch all you guys helping each other and playing with each other. Sometimes I am more active, and jumping around with you, having fun, playing tag, and just doing whatever. Sometimes I am a little grumpy, and I am a little too quick to judge, or I can’t take a joke. I am sorry about those days.
There are lots of different Gregs, and each one acts differently. Also, each one was affected differently by the smoking, and had a different part to play in starting smoking. I have always said I am succeeding in this quit because I learned what I needed to quit. The first thing I needed was this playground, and I looked for weeks until I found it. The second thing I needed to do was to get to know each Greg, and learn why each Greg got started smoking, and why each Greg wanted to keep smoking.
Lately, I have been thinking of the Adult Greg. Growing up, he saw adult smoke. I didn’t start smoking until I was 20, I was feeling like I had reached adulthood. I was responsible, going to college, paying my own tuition, dating…. all the adult things. It seemed only logical that as an adult, I would start smoking.
So, in order to succeed in my quit, me and my adult have has many conversations. I needed to meet the needs of the adult so he would not fight the quit. In truth, there were times where I had to tell myself clearly that adulthood does not mean smoking. I can be an adult and smoke free.
And he was just one of the many Gregs that I needed to talk to in order to succeed.
And it has been worth it!