I know, it has been a while since I have been on the playground. I am sorry if I made anyone worry. I am still smoke free. And like many in No Man’s Land, have great days and no so great days. And the not so great days are coming less frequently.
It has been busy with spring and early summer chores that dad says have to get done. The garden is started and growing well, and the garage has to get resided and reroofed. And of course, the fence and porch have to be painted (Tom, Tom Sawyer! Now where did that lad go?).
But it all will get done, and if not this year, then next. This year, well, this year I am smoke free. I realize now, as I look at the calendar, that today is 3 months on the nose! 91 days for those who are more numeric. Darn impressive, if I do say so myself.
And yes, Myself is the key.
I firmly believe I would not have made it this far without the playground, but at the same time, I would not have made it if I did not take time to learn about Greg. A successful quit (And I believe I am on the road to that) has many parts, and is VERY individualized. You have to use tools that are right for you, and in a timeline that is right for you.
I took time to really learn about who I am. I failed at many quits as I leaned more. I explored my triggers, but also what brought me to smoking in the first place. What is driving me to smoke, deep inside me?
And now that I quit, what do I need to stay quit?
Coming here helps me stay quit. Helping other succeed helps me stay quit. Having people tell me I need to shower more helps me stay quit (and clean).
But the last week, being on the playground less helped me stay quit. For me, it helped my quit grow up a bit. My quit is getting closer to a mature quit. Being on my own is important. And I think, that is why the No Man’s Land check in is important. We accept that some of us are staying away more, but just checking in. And we are all happier when we know people are safe in your quit.
So take whatever time you need away from here to stay quit, but check in, people, because we care!