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Day Two, and yes, I am addicted.

Blog Post created by gregp136 on Mar 18, 2017

Minding my own business, had just cooked and eaten dinner, was cleaning up after, and decided to make a pineapple upside down cake.  Not bothering anyone.

It hit me.

Hard.

Like day and night!

I am filled with rage (luckily I did not throw the glass across the room that refused to fit in the dishwasher correctly).

My body and brain is begging for the nicotine.

I would love to blame all of you because none of you told me that making a Pineapple upside down cake would be a trigger!!!

(Sorry attempt at humor)

But yes, for whatever reason, This is way worse than yesterday.

 

And no, I am not beaten.  But WOW!

 

Just Wow!

 

I wonder if I have trained my body into this.  Many times I have quit smoking on a sat. Morning.  Hung in there fine until Monday morning and then would fail Monday at work.  I started a day early this time.  Just a thought.

 

But yes, just writing this has helped.  And telling my wife has helped.  

 

And thinking of ripping out the dishwasher and throwing it across the road REALLY helps.

 

But I won't.

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