So many people come up with so many excuses to why they won't quit, or stay quit. There is just going to have to come a time when you say who gives a chit about this or that, or why I can't right now or blah blah blah and just do it, especially after getting all the education on the addiction from this site. Do what needs to be done and start on the road to getting healthy! We will always have boatloads of excuses why we should smoke, our addicted minds will give us permission every time we show weakness to it. . I remember when I was thinking of quitting, for weeks that is all that was on my mind, I was so miserable I couldn't even enjoy the dang smoke anymore, because all I had on my mind was ' I need to quit, I don't want this killing me '. It was crazy, then I figured well ' **** or get off the pot, one of the two needs to get done, because I am driving myself insane ' Well I ended up finding this site and finally quitting! Once people find this site, which to me is one of the biggest gifts we could get in life, if they take everything in and get serious about it, they will quit. Doesn't mean it's easy, it is frigging hard, but doable. I'm not very far into my quit, but I know I don't ever want to go down that road again, so I will do everything in my power not to lose my quit, and that will be by just NEVER LIGHTING UP ONE, If I ever get to the point where I'm having a trigger that won't stop, I will go jogging (which I hate, but I will be so out of breath it will show me how stupid I sound wanting a smoke ) I will breathe through a straw and show myself how it is to have severe breathing problems , I will do whatever it takes. Luckily I haven't had any craves or feelings like that for awhile. I just feel kinda lost still, which I gather is normal. I'm finding my new way of living now without feeding myself poison everyday, not a bad way to live really! Well that is my rant tonight.