Today for some reason I have wanted to smoke all day. I think it is because I forgot to put my patch on. I am using the lozenges but they are not helping. I think I am going to go put the patch on. I feel so tired and stressed out. I wonder what I am going to do when I don't have the patches anymore. I can't help but feel kind of depressed. I guess I am in the depression stage of grieving and it is getting to me. I just want to feel normal again. But some good news since it's been almost two weeks of not smoking I have managed not to put on any weight.