It's been a pretty tough day. I am so so so so appreciative of all your helpful posts today. What an amazing group you are. I just always feel like someone out there wants to smoke and if I mentioned that I might want that too, it might be like giving them permission. I don't want any of us to smoke. I don't think smoking is the answer to how I'm feeling.
I think that there has been some significant triggers going on and I'm trying to maintain with that positive attitude, but today, it caught up with me. I jus tneed a new way of looking at things and I'm not sure that I'm close to being there. My good husband sees how I'm struggling, but as much as he loves me, he doesn't quite get how hard this is. Really, I only have you all to help me through this. That's why I'm so appreciative. Thank you, all.