tough day

[emilyt123078]

Well, so much for feeling pretty good.  I don't know what happened today that brought me to tears.  I went over it in my head and I basically had a breakdown in the middle of the day. Yesterday, I noticed I was thinking about cigarettes, like my mind would just automatically go right there. I'm not shocked, mind you. It hasn't been that long ago since I quit, but boy, it was all I could do to focus.  Today, I woke up feeling defeated and that was weird. I had a difficult night last night, trying to sleep but having these really intensive dreams.  I know that I feel better, even though I go through these really rough patches where I just want to crawl under a rock and pretend I don't exist for a while, but today was over the top.

I hate bringing this to a forum of people who are trying to quit and just as overwhelmed as I am, but the truth is, I feel sad today and I don't know why. I just wish I could feel a little better. I'd love to have one great day where I'm feeling positive and not ugly, tired and weepy. What a day that would be....