I am so exhausted and in so much pain that I seriously have nothing to offer to anyone. I went to down to the basement twice in rapid succession and I fully expected to go into respiratory arrest. I am going to the bed...I cannot deal with any more...any more of ANYTHING. I need sleep, have to work tomorrow and I HAVE to be awake and alert and helpful. It is my son's 33rd birthday and I have nothing for him that shows any thought ...I am not feeling like a 69 year old should be feeling....I am tired, I am so incredibly tired and overwhelmed and I do NOT want to feel this way. Perhaps a night's sleep will help...PLEASE LET IT HELP. There is not a point on my body that is not screaming, I want my mom...pretty odd thing for a nearly 70 year old to feel, I just want to be comforted.
I am so sorry for my pity party, please feel welcome to kick me in the butt...I need you guys, you have gotten me to where I am, my level of fatigue is overwhelming.
I love you ALL...every single one of you...forgive me for being a wimp tonight.
Love and hugs and my very best, any my deepest gratitude to ALL of you.
Ellen
