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Thank you, again and again and again

elvan
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I am in a fragile state as many of you pointed out on my blog about watering my cheeks.  I am not watching the news, I have to completely step away and I know of many others who feel the same way.  I am not sure if that is good or bad but if I don't take care of myself, I will completely meltdown and do a Humpty Dumpty.  I do have to try to take care of myself, I am not sure how much time I can devote to that but I have to try.  There seem to be so many demands on my time and energy that I am going constantly.  

Today, Mike saw the primary care physician, she feels that his confusion and most of his issues in the hospital were from his "near death" experience and she says that time will tell whether or not the symptoms will get better.  He has gained 12# since his last weight at the skilled nursing facility and HE found that terribly alarming.  I reminded him that it was a different scale and that he was most likely in his pajamas and not wearing a jacket the last time he was weighed. He has a lot of swelling in his left leg which is the graft site, the doctor feels there is enough redness and swelling to start an antibiotic, I had asked for that when he was in the SNF but they felt that Bacitracin ointment was enough.  The next several weeks and maybe months will a blur of doctor's appointments and cardiac rehabilitation.  Guess I have my work as a taxi driver cut out for me.  

Again, many thanks to all of you, I will keep watering my cheeks for as long as they demand it.

Love,

Ellen

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.