So, this is all new

Blog Post created by elims-09-14-13 on Jan 31, 2017

Hello Exers!


Interesting changes going on in here. Good things. 


Suddenly started getting notifications about activity here, so I thought I'd come check it out. I'll have to look around a bit to get reacquainted. 


I am still putting one foot in front of the other. Things are fine. Stuff still happens. My son is still working on his issues outside of my care and home, I'm still dealing with PTSD from my car accident as well as back pain, and I'm still grieving powerfully. Interesting thoughts this month. 


Saturday will be the 7 month-iversary of my mother's passing. It would have been my parents' 50th anniversary. Big day. On January 6, I realized I had been so busy dealing with things related to my son's issues that I had let the 4th pass without realizing it was 6 months since she passed. This was huge. I felt sad and guilty and it was horrible - and it was kind of freeing.


Much like when I first quit, at first I kept track of the hours since my mother died. I thought I wouldn’t be able to breathe, but I did. I wasn’t sure I could make the drive to the house, but I did. I didn’t think I could make it through the next day, and I found myself keeping track of days. Then weeks. I know that I was well into "10 weeks, 2 days..." before I stopped including the hours, and eventually it became just the weeks, and then just months, and then, somehow, I just didn't think about it for 2 days. Just like that, now almost seven months have passed.


And in my quit, I'm at almost 3.5 years. YEARS! There was a time I didn't believe I'd ever be here. And just like that - here I am. Looking back, it wasn't that hard, one minute at a time, then an hour at a time, etc.Once I decided that I wanted to quit more than I wanted to smoke.


YOU can do it too. 


And please do.


I lost my mother 7 months ago to COPD. Now we are watching as my Aunt prepares to leave our world - a victim of Stage 4 lung cancer. She quit smoking over a decade ago, but still the cancer came. By the time she got the diagnosis it was already too late. Chemo may have afforded her a few more months, but the side effects weren't worth it. so she opted for in home hospice. In a matter of 3 years, my father will have lost both sisters and his wife. 


We are all going to die anyway - we just don't need to increase the likelihood of it happening sooner by smoking.


Be well. It changed the way the stats read - so I'm not sure how many days in a row I've just not smoked.