Ah, well I was aiming to try and move my originally set quit day (March 1st) up to 2/18 but I wasn't able to do it. I think I hyped myself up too much telling myself "I'm going to quit, I'm going to quit!" but I didn't give myself enough time to actually PREPARE myself to quit! I didn't get rid of my cigarettes the night before, I didn't visit the support community and I didn't do what my coach advised -- think about and list alternative behaviors I could do to replace smoke breaks.
So, it kind of sucks I wasn't able to stick to 2/18 but at least I still have my original date to quit all set! I have my first two week of patches and I'm going to spend more time actually preparing myself.
Ugh, I HATE how hard this is! I'm a recovering alcoholic and I feel like it was easier quitting drinking (having over 5 years sober now)!!! So much of smoking has become about the behaviors...like going to smoke after I make a cup of coffee in the morning, going to smoke after a meal, lighting up a cigarette if I'm stressed or emotional! That's going to be the toughest to break. The actual smoking I don't think I even ENJOY anymore...it's those behaviors I'm so accustomed to.