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When Will I Ever Learn?And does the palindrome I have today make any difference?

Blog Post created by djmurray_12-31-14 on Aug 23, 2018

I used to state, relating of course to my alcoholic husband, that "there is no such thing as a geographic cure."  In other words. just moving to a different setting for your suffering doesn't make a bit of difference.  It's true, too.

I am still a happy smoker and my oldest daughter, just having received a definitive diagnosis of Muscular Sclerosis (MS) after 18 years and 5 severe episodes is relieved (but certainly not happy) to finally get this actual diagnosis rather than the skeptical "have you considered seeing a psychiatrist" question because her test results aren't "right down the middle"

Make no mistake -- I love being near my daughter and her husband and my two fabulous grandkids, but I was hoping to feel less overwhelmed when I got here rather than more.  My family has done a magnificent job of unpacking and organizing me.  They've put together furniture for me, and I haven't done much of anything.  I did take my granddaughter out shopping for some things she wanted for school, and we  had great fun doing it. but I was exhausted all day and simply couldn't get out of bed this morning so I missed her first field  hockey game this evening.  I want to be the grandma who does it all, but I think I have to work up to that somewhat.  It was a gorgeous day here today, but I didn't get out of my jammies.  Guess I'll have to take this one day at a time, or one step at a time if I need to.

Marsha is going to be released from the hospital tomorrow, and I'll plan to drive up to Pittsburgh early next week to spend a few days with her and get her pantry stocked with things she'll actually eat.  Then when I get back from Pgh I'll start looking for a part time job.  Right this minute I'm not doing well at staying part time out of my bed, so I have a way to go. 

oh, my palindrome today is 1331.  Maybe it's a sign.  Love you all -- heading to bed and I'll write more when I'm not dopey from the sleeping pill.  Sweet dreams, brave quitters.

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